Clearly, I have begun to lose it. Anyway, the USCIS update page was finally updated! As of August 16th they were processing applications that had been received as of May 15th. Sounds bad, however, I know for a fact that the lady in Oswego that is adopting had a filing date of May 9, 2007 and she received her approval back on June 29, 2007. So that is two weeks less than the stated dates – which I have been told the USCIS posts to cover their behinds.
Based on that information I should receive the approval by the end of September.
I know I should just try and chill out but that is 5 1/2 weeks away. And then the really big wait begins with a minimum of 8 weeks to an average of 17 weeks.
I have to tell you that I really hate living like this – waiting for time to pass – it seems like an awfully big waste of life. I remember when I was seventeen and still in high school. I wanted to get out of the house so bad and leave for college that during that last year I made myself a calendar on posterboard. I looked forward to crossing off each day as it went by as it got me closer to the point when I was .. OUT OF THERE. I remember that some days, when there was more discord than harmony, crossing off the day was the highlight of my day. At the end, when I was packing for college, I took down the posterboard calendar and cut it up into sqaures, cutting out each of the twelve months. It was then that I realized how much life and time had gone by where I was just waiting for the next day to come and go so that eventually my life could happen. I made a conscious choice to never waste my time again waiting for time to pass to be able to get to the point where I could experience life. But to be honest, it has happened many times since then. I realize now that the majority of those times were out of my control and someone else or something else controlled the pace of my life…and so I was a pawn in the forward motion of my own life…something that I do not enjoy being. I am sure I am not alone in this experience – I guess the only thing you can do is learn patience and try and make the best of the situation you are in so that there is some meaning in the waiting…and of course like me I always wait for that opportunity to escape the waiting and when it comes I darn well take it at top speed.